Thursday, March 23, 2006
Lost ...
Sometimes it's a feeling like you're losing off the battle. It's a hard fought battle and you might be already losing half of your arsenal not knowing what will happen next. It feels like you're simply down under but there's nothing much you can do about it but to only hope.
At times things are not meant to be rushed and even if you do, it doesn't make a difference. I guess there are just too many things in life that is out of our control, far beyond what we thought we could. Thinking back only makes it more difficult, noticing all the mistakes and terrible things you've done. At times we wish we could turn back time, to avoid what we shouldn't have done. Often we imagine things and things are so wonderful in imaginations but we never know if it'll ever come.
Optimistically, imagination means a reality that hasn't come about while time will reveals the truth. Pessimistically, it's just a day dream. Optimistic is the way how I see it but I know where I stand. I believe humans make mistakes but sometimes we're not forgiven. I believe in waiting but what if the wait never come? There are too many "IF" and "BUT" when in the fact it could be avoided if only things are much better now in reality.
The universe is rather complex, so does the meaning of life. Humans are equipped with feelings and feelings are uncontrollable. Sadness isn't something we could avoid and happiness isn't something we could always keep and expect. It's the nature of how things are that the world is never perfect. It is sometimes hard but the determination and self-motivation keep things going. Expectations are always high and failure is truly devastating.
I can only hope and pray hard that the unappeared reality would someday come.
/me crapped at 12:09 AM GMT+8
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